Sabado, Setyembre 3, 2011

Send my Love to Heaven =(

What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I love the way she laughs at me when I commit mistakes, the way she fusses over silly things and even the way she cries over some sad silly late night show...

She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love. I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to a neighboring state at transfer because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when came out the loveliest girl I've ever seen.

She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back and then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Sam, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks! Troy and I made this. This used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with Troy and I could be your new best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!"

So that's how it started. So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a week's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.

The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.

Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.

We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance with mixed feelings of anger and hurt! Because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.

Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team to which Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy. Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. Every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him. As she passes by me she doesn't know that I whisper the words "God how I love you."

Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up with their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe I would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.

So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her, "I love her". So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.

It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said, "Well I just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We… we're silent for a while until I finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam. "The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy I felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!”I ran slowed up so that I would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in the whole world." She then asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her. When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said, "Would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven't done it.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn't know. So I went to search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so close to each other that I could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress that Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium.

Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. In the hallways, as she approaches I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.

The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me, there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.

So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I'm worthy of having her.

It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her. I reached their house; I saw her elder sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lady just like my dear Sam. I then asked, "Hi Jen! I guess you're surprised why I'm here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Mmm… by the way have you seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly "Come follow me."

I was confused with the way she's acting but still I followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but she just answered my question briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree, Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up. I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and she slowly started saying, "It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.

I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading........

I know… by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was… when you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you were with me. When you were away, I can't stop crying because I was afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel.

Each time, you held me close to you, was like a dream coming true, for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was like heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm saying are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be thinking of Mark; but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know… how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. When our prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.

What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. You continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you… how much I loved you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.

Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, but still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S.: Think of me sometimes... and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.

I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven."

FYI: i just copy this from the google:)

Huwebes, Agosto 4, 2011

"Loving Enemies"

One of my friends, Kennedy, used to tell me. “Love your enemies and pray for your persecutors,” I sometimes think that my friend taken leave of his senses. How in the world can you love someone who make you embarrassed in the crowd of people, criticize and make fun in what you are doing? How can you pray for someone who keeps on backbiting you or has inflicted a terrible injustice on you in school? But this is precisely what my friend teaching me. I just remember my first year life.

It was my first day in school. I look weird because of my eyeglasses and I bring lot of books to read. When I was walking along the aisle someone bump me and obviously my books fall. The bad part is the one who used to bump me just laugh and said that “You’re clumsy” he just continue walking with his friend. I said to myself “he even does not think to help me in getting the books” I’m in bad mood that day and I will not forget that guy who has no manners. When I enter the classroom I saw the guy who lately bump me and don’t even help me. Some of the girls are screaming when they saw that guy. “Gosh! I’m so lucky that I’m one of the classmates of Ethan” the girls scream. I heard that Ethan is popular because of being good looking, intelligent and gentlemen. “What gentlemen? I asked Kennedy. “Yeah, his gentlemen Alice” Kennedy answered. “How can he be gentlemen when he just laugh at me and don’t even think to help me get the books” I exclaimed. I do not know that Ethan is listening. “Excuse me, I chose the person who I want to help” Ethan explains. “So what, I’m not asking you” I answered. “I’m just explaining myself; you know I don’t want people who are weird like you,” he added.” And I don’t care, I’m not asking your suggestion” I said to him. “Ok, I’m just telling you so that you will not be embarrassed” Ethan said. I just walk out and go to the comfort room. Kennedy follows me in the comfort room. “Alice, are you ok? Kennedy asked me. “Yes I am.” I answer her in teary eyes. “It’s ok Alice, I know Ethan is just kidding” she said. I just laugh and go back to the classroom. And as the days past, Ethan continue to tease me, he makes me embarrassed with many people, he criticize and make fun in what I am doing, and keeps on backbiting me.

One day my classmate Jordan is teasing Jasper that he is gay. At first Jasper didn’t entertain what they are saying but a few minutes he lost his patience, when I walk in front of Jordan. Jasper accidentally punches me in my hands he cries and he taught that it was Jasper. It was very painful in part of me, it was my first time that somebody will punch me so I cry and I don’t know what I am saying to Jasper because I felt angry. My friends went to me and check if I’m ok. Somebody just shout and said that “you know Alice; you’re over acting it is not nice to see” Ethan shouted. “You just say that Ethan because you’re not the one who feel the pain Alice felt now” Kennedy exclaimed. “Punch by somebody is painful especially because Alice is a girl” Kennedy added. They just give me some ice because it turns to violet. “Are you okay?” Jasper asked. “A little bit” I answered. He asked apology for what he does.

After the accident, we have seminars in our values “My dear friends like what God said in Luke 6:27-29.Love your enemies. Do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse…” the Pastor preach. “All terribly hard to swallow” I said in my mind. “Say sorry to your enemies before the day you will regret” the Pastor added. Then I stare at Ethan, he simply smile I snob at him. “You should be humble today Alice. Say sorry to Ethan” Kennedy whisper. Jasper went to me. “Alice I’m sorry for what I does lately” Jasper apologize. “It’s okay, it’s an accident” I forgive him. After the seminar we have our break. Somebody grabbed my hand. “Alice, I’m sorry” he said. When I turn my head it’s Ethan. “Miracle, you asked an apology” I laughed. “I’m sorry for what I’m doing to you and for what I said” he said. I was shock, my enemy is asking sorry. “It’s also my fault, yeah your right I’m just over acting lately, I’m sorry also” I said to him. “So are we okay now?” he asked. I said “Maybe”. “Can you be my friend” he asked. “I will think about it” I kiddingly said. After how many months, Ethan becomes one of my best friends and my fancy crush. When I know him more I believe in saying that “The more you hate, the more you love”

Some say that forgiveness does not come easily or naturally. It’s easy to profess that we love mankind, but it’s difficult to love an “unlovable person in concrete. It’s as if saying “I love humanity, its people I can’t stand”

"Pangarap Lang Kita"

Minsan naiinis ako sa sarili ko akala ko kasi future ko lang ang proproblemahin kong pangagarapin, pati pala sa pag-ibig may mga pagkakataon na hanggang pangarap mo lang siya.

ako pala si Camille isang babaeng maganda, conservative, loaner at higit sa lahat ako yung babaeng hindi nagpapapansin sa crush ko, in short I'm just a simple girl. may classmate ako si Rafael, maingay,matalino at makulit. sa lahat ng lalaki siya lang ang nagpapangiti, nagpapatawa, at nagpapasaya sa araw ko. Ewan ko ba bakit kapag kasama ko siya, i feel like a Princess siguro nga dahil grabe siya kung mag-care sa akin. dumating ang pagkakataon na Ate at Kuya na ang tawagan namin sa isa't isa.
 Rafael: Ate!! may gusto ako kay Mica..
Camille: Wow!! congratz for the first time na-inlove ka
Rafael:Grabe ka naman..
..nang marinig kung may gusto si Rafael kay Mica na bestfriend ko this highschool masyado akong nasaktan.
Rafael: ate okay ka lang?
Camille: hah? ay sorry
Rafael:ba't parang natulala ka?
Camille: ayy..wala
Rafael: kaso ate.Torpe ako..
Camille: yan na nga ba ang problema sa mga lalaki masyadong torpe
Rafael:di ko alam ang gagawin ko
Camille madali lang yan..ako na ang magsasabi kay Mica
Rafael: huh? eeh? baka magalit siya
Camille: wag kang mag-alala..ako ang bahala..
Rafael: hahay..salamat talaga ate..
bigla akong niyakap ni Rafael
Camille: basta para sayo kuya
Rafael: thank you talaga
Camille: oh tama na ang yakap
Rafel: ayy..sorry baka ma-inlove ako sayo..
 sinabi ko kay Mica na may gusto si Rafael sa bawat araw na nakikita ko si Rafael at Mica na magkasama..gumuguho na ang mundo ko, minsan natutulog na lang ako. sa bahay naman umiiyak ako at sinasabi ko na lang sa sarili ko "hanggang pangarap na lang ba kita"? para akong tanga, kinokompare ko yung sarili ko kay Mica, Ba't ba ako nagagalit sa bestfriend ko eh si Rafael naman yun nagkakagusto kay sa kanya.

Rafael:'t parang lumalim yang mata mo?
Camille: huh?
Rafael: umiyak ka ba?
Camille: aiiee...wala toh..grabe kasi ang basa ko nang libro..
Rafael: ahh..ganun ba..ate na miss kita
Camille: owwwzz
Rafael: mabuti pa i libre na lang kita
Camille: baka hanapin ka ni Mica

di sumagot si libre niya na lang ako..
pagdating ng hapon..nag-iisa ako sa bench..panandaliang naging Emotera..may narinig akong tumutugtug ng "Pangarap Lang Kita" by Parokya  Ni Edgar

paglingon ko..Rafael:

at kahit mahal kita
 wala akong magagawa
tanggap ko oh aking sinta
pangarap lang kita

Camille: ang sakit naman niyan
Rafael: kaya nga eh
Camille: oh kamusta na kayo ni Mica?
Rafael: ang sakit pala ate.. inamin niya sa akin na may gusto siya kay bestfriend ko pa talaga
Camille: parehas lang pala tayo
Rafael: huh?
Rafael: alam mo ba noon pa lang may gusto na ako sayo
Rafael: ate sana maniwala ka
Rafael: hindi yata bestfriend turing ko sayo,.,Mahal na kita
Camille: ....???
Rafael: uieee...ATE!!
Bigla niya akong niyakap at ginulat
Rafel: ate gising..hapon na
Camille: huh?
Rafael: nakatulog ka sa bench..
Camille:(hahay..panaginip lang pala)
Rafael: dali may pupuntahan tayo
Camille: Saan?
Rafael: basta!! trust me:)
Camille: Okay
pumunta kami sa rooftop..may biglang tumugtog ng "Pangarap Lang Kita"...sinampal ko ang sarili ko..panagingip lang ba ito? kung panaginip man, sana di na ako magising..
Rafael: ate..totoo na to
Camille: anong ibig sabihin nito??

Rafael: na torpe talaga ako sayo..ikaw yung tipo ng babae na Hard To Get. masyado kang loaner at natakot ako baka hindi mo ako gusto..tanggap ko naman,,pero susubukan ko.. Camille can you be my girlfriend?

Camille: yan kasi ang problema sayo..masaydo kang Torpe..ang tagal mo kung pinaghintay..alam mo bang minsan gusto ko nang sumuko. at napa-isip na lang ako na siguro hanggang "Pangarap na lang Kita".siyempre hindi ko naman sasayangin ang pagkakataon.YES i will be your girlfriend..
Rafael: pasensya na ulit

bigla na lang niyang tinugtog ang Your Guardian Angel at sabay sabi..
 Rafael: because a girl like you is impossible to find.
Camille: i'm impossible to find:)

Panakip Butas

may mga pagkakataon talaga sa buhay natin di maiiwasan na kung in-love ka..okay lng sayo kahit naging "Panakip Butas"

Ako nga pala si Sam. mabait, madaldal, maganda,matangkad at higit sa lahat friendly. sa school namin halos lahat ng mga students friend ko na. Pero sa lahat ng mga kaibigan ko may isa talaga akong bestfriend si Arthur. Gwapo, matalino, magaling mag-gitara at pinaghahabulan ng mga girls.

Nung elementary pa lang kami pinangako namin sa sarili na hindi kami maiinlove sa isa't isa dahil nga mag best friend kami. pero minsan nararamdaman ko na may gusto na ako sa kanya.

Ang mga girls sa school nagpapatulong sa akin para mapansin ni Arthur. wala naman akong magawa.

Girl: Sam.. tulungan mo naman ako kay Arthur. gusto ko tlaga siya.
Sam: huh? sige..sige..
Girl: salamat Sam
sa isip ko..mga babae nga naman ngayon. sila na yung humahabol sa mga boys..Such a Ewwww.!!
Sam: eh anong gusto mong gawin ko?
Girl: Magkakaroon kasi ng party sa bahay namin sabi nila hindi pumupunta si Arthur sa party kung hindi ka gusto ko sumama ka..
Sam: ahh.. Madali lng pala eh,,sure..sure
Girl: salamat Sam.

isa lang yun sa mga paduding ng mga girls sa BFF kong si Arthur.

Arthur: Bes.. tulungan mo ako
Sam: ano yun bes?
Ivan: may gusto kasi ako kay Belle at alam mo ba sa kanya lang ako na torpe ng ganito
Sam: (Ouch!!! ang sakit nun) so ano gusto mong gawin ko?
Arthur: di ba close kayo? sige na Bes..gumawa ka ng paraan para maging close kami.
Sam: hmm...let me think
Arthur: Bes..sige na PLEASE...
Sam: Sige na nga
Arthur: Yes!! salamat as in so much

kahit nasasaktan ako..okay lang..basta para sa Bestfriend ko
...ginawa ko nga ang pangako ko sa bestfriend ko..naging close si Arthur at si Belle pero ito ang pinakamasakit naging sila for almost 5 months.. Grabe ang sakit nun sa tuwing nagtetext si Arthur na nanonod  sila ng sine, kumakain sa mamahaling restaurant, at nag rirides sa WOF.(malaking ouch sa akin yun)

sinabi ko sa sarili ko "Arthur Shone ganyan ka na ba ka manhid para hindi mo ako mapansin!!!" sabay iyak ng todo...
at marami pa ang nangyari sa kanila..
Isang Araw..:)
Arthur:(Crying) Bes!!
Sam: oh anong nangyari sayo?
Arthur: Bes.. break na kami ni Belle
Sam:(yes!!) huh? Bakit??
Arthur: may nakita daw siyang mas gwapo at mas deserving kaysa sa akin..
Sam: okay lang yan..marami pa namang iba jan..
Arthur: Bes may last favor ako sayo
Sam: ano na naman yan?
Arthur: Magkunwari kaya tayo na girlfriend kita..
Sam:(Shock) huh? para ano?
Arthur: para paselosin si Belle at marealize niya na mali ang pag-iwan niya sa akin... para makalimutan ko na rin siya..
Sam: (this is it!! i gagrab ko na yun opportunity) uhhm.. per one week lang ha?..
Arthur: sige
Sam:(ano yun? Tanga!! bakit one week lng sana Forever na lang)

For one week naging kami kunuhay ni Arthur,, ang dami niyang ginawa tulad ng pagbibigay ng flowers kada umaga, pagtugtog ng gitara, paghahawak kamay namin tuwing umuuwi, at pagdadala ng bag ko papunta sa bang normal na ginagawa ng mag boyfriend..

Sam: Bes..parang ayaw ko na..
Arthur: huh? bakit?
Sam: para kasing panakip butas mo lang ako para makalimutan si Belle
Arthur: Bes..pasensya ka na ha..pati ikaw nadamay
Sam: kaya nga eh..
Arthur: paano kaya kung totohanin na natin ito..ligawan na kaya kita?
Sam: (shock) pero Bes..!!
Arthur: Alam mo bang mahal na kita.
Sam: paano yung pangako natin na hindi dapat tayo maiinlove sa isa't isa..?
Arthur: eh anong magagawa ko mahal na kta..
Arthur: di ba nga may kasabihan" your friend can be your lover"?
sam: noon pa man din kasi mahal na kita,,,di mo lang napapansin

bigla siyang tumugtog ng "Walang Iba" by Ezra Band. at sabay sabi na..

Arthur: you are the best thing. it's ever been mine
Sam: kainis ka naman oh..akala ko kasi hanggang "Pangarap Lang Kita"

Sabado, Hulyo 30, 2011

"Small But Terrible"

Sabi nga nila may mga taong hindi gaano ka tangkad pero magaling naman sa mga iba't ibang gawain ika nga "Small But Terrible"

Ako nga pala si Marie, dalagang filipina, mahinhin, tahimik matangakad at maganda.
isang araw habang nasa classroom kami dahil walang teacher.

Kyla: Marie may sasabihin ako sayo
Marie: Ano man?

Biglang dumaan sa harap nila si Jay ang binansagang "Small But Terrible" sa classroom nila dahil nga gwapo, magaling mag-basketbaal, matalino at higit sa lahat hindi ganun ka tangkaran na tinuring ng parang anak ni Marie sa classroom nila.

Kyla: uiee..may bagong kanta si Taylor Swift
Marie: kaya gani..
Kyla: sinong tinitingnan mo?
Marie: aiii si realize ko lng talaga ngayon ba cute man pala siya..
Kyla: weeh? cute daw?

kasabay nila Kyla at iba pa niyang classmate si Jay umuuwi. habang nagbibiruan sila sa multicab.

Kyla: Jay may sinabi baya si Marie sa akin kanina
Jay: ano daw?
Kyla: cute ka daw..share lng
Jay: tlaga? pag sure

Sabay sigaw ng "uiee" ng mga kaklase namin

Princess: Naku jay!! akala ko anak lng ang turing ni Marie pala mas malalim pa..
Kyla:  Check!!
Jay: matagal ko naman alam na cute ako (may pagkamayabang din minsan si Jay)

lumipas ang ilang araw sa klase namin..Nagtaka na lang ako kung bakit si Jay na ang binibiro nila sa akin.

Kyla: Mar dumaan si Jay oh..
Marie: huh? bakit pala?
Princess:  ayieee...sabi mo pa nga cute si Jay
Marie: i admit..cute tlaga si Jay
Kyla: aminin mo na nga may gusto ka na rin sa kanya..
Marie: duuhh!!..isipin niya na ang gusto niyong isispin..pero hindi noh..

Nagtaka na lng ako.mga talong araw ang lumipas may nag-text sa akin..

Text: Hi!
Marie: Hello!! sino to?
Text: si Jay nga pala.

Hindi lang hnaggang text ang communication namin pati sa chat sa facebook. pero ang malungkot nag-iiwasan kami sa personal..kung baga kung gaano kami ka close sa patagong pag-uusap ganun naman katindi ang pag-iiwasan namin sa personal..

Kyla: alam mo ba marie.. ang OA(over acting) mo na kay Jay..simula nung binibiro ka namin sa kanya di mo      na siya pinapansin..
Marie: eh kasi nga alam ko na lalagyan niyo ng malisya..
Kyla: sabihin mo lang tlaga may gusto ka na sa kanya..
Marie: hindi kaya..ewan ko sayo

Nagkaroon ng camping sa school namin..second day of camp may nag-text sa akin si Jay.. sabi niya may ibibigay siya sa akin..dahil natakot ako no choice i need help..kaya ang ginawa ko sinabi ko sa bestfriend ko na si Kyla.

Kyla: sinasabi ko na nga na..may paregalo regalo pang nalaman
Marie: kung kunin mo na lang kaya.

Dahil nga sobrang bait ng bestfreind ko kinuha niya ang regalo ni Jay para sa akin.laking gulat ko na lng na isang Malaking Teddy bear na Pooh(Pooh kasi ang paborito ko) ang binigay niya sa akin. hindi nag-tagal nanligaw si Jay sa akin dahil nga na inlove na ako sa kanya sinagot ko rin siya...

Height doesn't Matter in terms of LOVE

May mga tao talaga na hinuhusgahan natin sa panlabas tulad sa kanilang height pero hindi natin alam na mas sobra pa pala silang mag-mahal kaysa sa mga taong nanghuhusga sa kanila..

at sa ngalan ng pag-ibig "HEIGHT DOESN'T MATTER"